Cancer sucks

You know the shirts and hats that say, "Cancer sucks." I well I agree. Royally.

Working in the healthcare field, I've always been aware that cancer is out there and it's a nasty disease. I've been especially aware since I work with radiation and too much can cause cancer. It also can be a form treatment for it also. (A bit ironic, I think.) Even though I'm aware of cancer and my occupation can put me a bit more risk for it, I know how to take the proper precautions. Wear my lead apron (its pretty purple), hide in the control panel, and don't be out there unless absolutely necessary.

My family history has a long line of cancer in it. I had one grandma die from cervical cancer and my other grandma is a 40+ year survivor of breast cancer. Not to mention other types of cancer that extended family has had. I have and still joke that I'm screwed from both sides of my family with cancer.


Approximately 3 months ago I found out my aunt had been diagnosised with breast cancer. Thankfully it had been caught early enough and she is currently in treatments and doing very well. She starts chemo tomorrow morning. And today I found out my grandma has breast cancer too.
*I need to clarify this isn't the same grandma as the one who is the survivor. My grandpa remarried 30 some years ago and its his current wife who has the cancer now.
And I have an uncle who is in remission for multiple myeloma too.

I guess I don't understand why my aunt, uncle and grandma are/have been battling this disease. I know my ways aren't God's and my thoughts aren't his. But the human side of me just asks, why? Why?? Maybe I'll never know or just have to wait until I get to heaven and ask him sometime. However I know that I can take stock and hope in the fact that God is in control and he knows better than me or anyone else for what is best.

But I'm gonna say it again.
CANCER SUCKS

Sorry this isn't a very happy post.